Just What I Needed

I think that the honeymoon is over. The transition back to work went relatively smoothly for me, and I was so relieved. Then about two weeks ago, things got a little crazy. Nothing in particular happened, but Wes's work schedule has been a little tough. He always has to work more hours during this time of year, and it has made for some very long, tiring days for us. We haven't been able to relax much, and I haven't been able to run my regular errands like I usually can. Adding to the crazy daytime schedule is the fact that Spencer no longer enjoyed sleeping through the night. I was getting really drained physically and emotionally, and starting to think that things would never get better. I was very sluggish, and my outlook was quite poor.
God always seems to know just when I need a little pick-me-up. Just when I think that things are so yucky, He reminds me that he is Lord over ALL areas of my life. Wes and I received some great nighttime relief when Spencer slept through the night four nights in a row. It is the best feeling to wake up in the morning and realize that she slept all night long!
I felt like God also directly answered one of my prayers when He took care of a situation at work. I had a parent who was angry at me for disciplining her child, and we had a conference set for last Monday. I knew that it would be uncomfortable, and it just ate at me for several days. I really did pray that the parents would cancel the meeting, but I also knew that that would never happen. God answered my prayers when those parents never even showed up.
As small as these things are, they reminded me that I can always go to God with my prayers, even when I think that they may be impossible. I've been trying to pray more specifically to God, but it is still often uncomfortable to me. I'm so thankful for this reminder that God wants to hear all sorts of prayers from me.

Boo!

We have been so excited about Halloween with Spencer since I first became pregnant. We couldn't wait for an excuse to go trick-or-treating. Wes was hoping that we would get lots of candy since we have a daughter with no teeth. We didn't take Spencer around the neighborhood, because I was too embarrassed to take candy for ourselves. We took our little monkey to see my grandmother. I am so glad that we were able to do this. I love watching my grandmother interact with Spencer. It is such a precious sight.

One of the best pictures ever

We took Spencer to my parents' house, and Spencer came away with a treat that is better than candy. Her grandparents gave her a cute Snoopystein that plays music. Spencer enjoys watching Woodstock jump out of the candy bag.Spencer hanging out with the pumpkins at her grandparents' house

We headed to Spencer's other grandparents' house, and she got another great Halloween treat. They gave Spencer a cute stuffed duck that plays different songs. She loves it! We got a special treat when Spencer's big friends, Tori and Zach, stopped by to trick-or-treat. They were precious, and she loved watching them play around. She can't wait to hang out with them more. Spencer looks scared of Zach's gun

Kelly Time!

We had a fun night last week when Kelly came to visit. We haven't had a good chance to see her lately, so it was great to spend a few hours with our sweet cousin. We filled up on chicken pot pie and had a relaxing dinner. Kelly was so sweet to bring a box of yummy cupcakes for us from Strossner's. We love our Kelly!

Spencer wanted to try one of Kelly's cute cupcakes. She got her hands all dirty on the spider cupcake.

You Wouldn't Believe

I never thought the day would come when I wore a DRESS and my daughter wore a PINK dress on the SAME DAY.

Sky Top

It's a little late in the fall, but we finally took Spencer to the apple orchard. It had been too hot until recently, but fall seems to have passed us by. I had the day off from work, and we wanted to go to Sky Top on a weekday. It gets crazy there on the weekend! We were not quite prepared for how cold it would be, so we just bundled Spencer up and made a quick trip through the orchard. We realized a few miles away from the orchard that we had forgotten the stroller, so we literally just carried her around the whole time. It was nicer doing that than pushing her around. As crazy as it is, we didn't even get any apples. There weren't many left to pick near the entrance, and we didn't want to stay out in the cold with Spencer for too long. It was still nice to take her there, and we are so excited to see her toddle around and grab apples there next year!


Starting out at about two feet

"No pictures, please."

Nice Treat!

Look at this fantastic surprise that one of my students brought me today. They are beautifully colored Halloween M&Ms layered in a cool jar. I wouldn't let Wes open it because it looks so cool. This girl is wonderful...she already brought me a stuffed Snoopy as a welcome back gift when I came back after maternity leave. A+ for her and her mother!

Hi ho, hi ho

I've now been back to work for fifteen days. I was absolutely dreading going back to work with every fiber of my being. I was honestly terrified that I wouldn't be able to do it. I would give anything to be able to stay at home at least part of the day, but this has been somewhat manageable. The first day actually went really well. It was sort of nice to put on nice clothes and to get myself out and about to somewhere besides Target. I really missed Spencer, and of course felt tremendous guilt for leaving her, but the day went by really quickly. Getting ready in the morning was very easy because Wes was staying home with her and he took care of everything. My coworkers were so good to me. One of them had written a welcome back note on my whiteboard, and one of my new team members brought me a "Welcome Back" balloon. They all brought smiles and hugs to me. I could not do this job without the wonderful women who work with me. Wes and Spencer left flowers and a card for me in the office. My mom and my sister sent flowers to me also. My brother and sister both sent encouraging text messages to me.
I left work as soon as I possibly could, and it was so nice to get to see Wes and Spencer after a long day. We've really gotten a good schedule at night, and things run pretty smoothly. I feel like I am more organized now than I was before I had a baby. I am extremely blessed to have the most amazing husband who takes perfect care of me and Spencer. He does so much more than I do, and he has to take Spencer to daycare and pick her up almost everyday. He has made this so much easier on me.
I am amazed at God's hand constantly over me. Only God could have made this transition as smooth as it has been. I imagined that I would be sobbing every day that I went to work. There is no way that I could be this much at peace with it on my own. I am so grateful that he has held this burden for me. I still have days when I do break down because I missed my baby or because I'm exhausted, but there are also days when I actually see positive benefits of working. That in itself is a miracle!

Two month appointment

I'm only a month late blogging about Spencer's two month appointment. Things went really well at this appointment, even the shots. We rescheduled our appointment just so that we could get in with a doctor that we really like, but we didn't realize that Wes would be out of town that day. We didn't want to reschedule, so my mom took time off from work just to come with me. Dr. Stoeber said that everything looked great with Spencer right now. He was fabulous about taking lots of time to answer all of my silly questions. Spencer weighted 11 pounds, 2 ounces and is in the 55th percentile. She is 24 inches long, which puts her in the 95th percentile. She is in the 75th percentile for head circumference. That is no surprise considering the size of her parents' noggins.
I had so much fun watching Spencer stare at herself in the mirror while she was on the doctor's table. She seriously could have done this for hours. The three shots that she received weren't too bad, and she wasn't very cranky afterwards. That nurse was so fast sticking those needles in her legs! Mom took us out to eat at Brick Street after the appointment to celebrate a successful well checkup.
Snoopy shot dots

The First Eight Weeks

What a whirlwind! Time has flown by, yet I also feel like Spencer has been here with us forever. I'm not really sure how we made it through those first few weeks with so much energy, but I truly think that adrenaline is a powerful thing. We have been spoiled rotten by so many sweet visitors bringing meals and treats for all of us. Many, many hands have held Spencer and loved on her so well. She is a lucky girl.
I can't believe how quickly it happens, but we have gone from carefully cradling this fragile child into passing her off with barely a finger holding up her head. It is now so much easier to grab her under her arms so that you don't constantly have to slide your hands beneath her to pick her up. When you hold her upright and put her feet on a surface, she strongly presses down and tries to support her weight. Spencer has always been good with tummy time and loved to turn her head back and forth. She has gotten lazy and frustrated in the last few weeks, though, and she doesn't enjoy this like she once did. We need to work on more enjoyable and productive tummy times.
We were so taken when she first started making eye contact. I have already forgotten how different it was when she was looking off, anywhere, with no focus. She has been cooing and "talking" to us. Everyone loves to listen to Spencer tell stories. She has finally started smiling for real. This is the best development so far. She has a great smile that reaches all the way to her eyes. It is beautiful! When I picked her up in the church nursery yesterday, she smiled when I came to her and began talking to her. What a great feeling!One of her first smiles while talking to her daddy...this is the best I could get

Sleeping is finally better...MUCH better! Things began to fall into place in that area when she was six weeks old. Wes and I never thought that we could survive the exhaustion that long, and all of the sudden, she started sleeping at night. It makes all the difference in the world. Even though we have a very structured bedtime routine, it still takes her awhile to actually fall asleep. She could go to sleep anywhere from 10:00 to 11:30. This happens even when we begin the routine at 7:30. Many nights so far, she has slept through until 5:00, 6:00, or even 7:30 one morning. Other nights, she wakes up once and occasionally twice in the middle of the night. When she does wake up, though, she is much easier to soothe back to sleep after a feeding. God heard my specific prayers asking to help sweet Spencer to sleep through the night.
Spencer loves going places with us, and she usually behaves very well. The one place that she doesn't seem to like is church. Uh oh! For some reason, she always got riled up when we tried to take her into the sanctuary with us, so we had to finally take her to the nursery. She loves going to the nursery to see all of her church friends.
We have taken her to eat at Arizona, Chicora Alley, McAlister's, Monterrey, Chick-Fil-A, Cracker Barrel, Zaxby's, Pete's, Fuddruckers, and even the Pot Belly Deli in Clemson. She did very well almost every time. She has gone to Haywood Mall a couple of times, and she has been inside Target more than anywhere else. Spencer is a great shopping buddy. She has even gotten to go across the Liberty Bridge in her stroller. Spencer about to cross the Liberty Bridge

She did so well in the car ride to and from Pawleys Island, where we stayed for four days. She enjoyed lying on the beach in the afternoon under an umbrella.
Bathtime has now become enjoyable! She screamed bloody murder in the beinning, but she now enjoys sitting in her tub, splashing while we wash her. Even if she is crying before we put her in, she calms down as soon as she feels the water. This bath lover truly is her mother's child. Happy girl snuggling with Daddy after a bath

I can't believe that Spencer has been in our lives for eight weeks. We are so excited about what else will happen in the next few months!

Spencer's Story

We were so blessed by the early arrival of Spencer Auden on July 14. She was very unexpected so soon, and I truly think that her surprise arrival was God's way of helping to minimize any anxiety on my part.
We were told a week before she was born that no progression towards labor had been made. I didn't feel as if I were about to have a baby in the days leading up to her birth. We had been pretty relaxed about the impending birth. I was taking some summer classes with the school district, I hadn't packed my hospital bag, and we even drove an hour away from Greenville to the ARP Church camp two nights before she was born.
I woke up on Tuesday at 4:45 and it looked as if my water had broken. I wasn't sure, though, so I told Wes to stay in bed. I was slightly worried that my hospital bag wasn't packed, so I decided to get all of my things together just in case it was time. More clues at this time indicated that my water really had broken. I waddled back into the bedroom to let Wes know that we were going to be heading to the hospital. We took our time getting ready and Wes packed random items that I called out to him while I was taking my last pregnant shower.
I knew that it would be a long time before I got to eat anything at the hospital, so Wes stopped by Dunkin Donuts on the way. I had to get one more sweet in while I still had the excuse of being pregnant.Wes at the drive thru ordering my donuts

Once we got to the hospital, we went to pregnancy triage and they were pretty quick in getting in to assess me. After they finally believed me that my water had broken (three times by my count), I was admitted. I was just now starting to feel some irregular contractions. All of the nurses were great and they quickly set me up. I got a very painless IV, and I was able to make my opinion about an epidural very clear. It was nice to know that the nurses would make this happen as soon as possible.
The day actually went by pretty quickly. My mom and my sister came to visit around lunchtime, and Wes and I just hung out and talked. I got my epidural early, so most of the day was pretty painless. The nice drug lady had to crank the epidural up a few times because I kept regaining feeling in one side of my body. I was very pleasantly surprised by the epidural. I had been terrified to get a catheter inserted into my back, but it wasn't bad at all.
Even though the hours seemed to fly by, it really was a long day. Over fourteen hours after arriving at the hospital, it was almost time for Spencer to be born! At about 8:00, feeling came back into one side of my body again, but this time the new, mean drug man would not let me have more epidural medicine. I was told that I would begin pushing without a redrugging. Yikes! I also developed a crazy huge neck cramp that was worse than any contractions I was feeling. I don't know what happened, but it was extremely painful. I'm not proud to admit that I lost my composure a bit at this point. Poor Wes...he was so great in dealing with me when I told him that I was going home and I was not going to have this baby.
By the grace of God, we got through this, and Spencer was born at 9:46. It was such an amazing feeling to see that little Wes Page clone lying on my chest.
I was soon after given heavy narcotics in my IV for some birthing issues. Sadly, I don't remember much else about the evening. Seeing our family in the room is a fuzzy memory for me, as is anything else that happened later that night. All I really needed to remember is that Spencer had arrived!

Another Sweet Shower

I was treated to an extra special, lovely shower by Wes's aunts and cousins. They worked so hard to make the day perfect. Even the invitations were adorable, and I was given thank you notes that matched them. The shower was at Brick Street Cafe, my favorite place to eat. Many of my favorite people were there. We had our own little corner of the restaurant, and it quickly filled up with people and the gifts that they were so generous to bring. We enjoyed a yummy lunch and I was so happy to spend time with friends and family that I don't get to see very often. Wes and I were floored by how wonderful everyone is to us. We received more baby items than we could have dreamed possible. We are beyond blessed to have so many people in our life who are so excited about our baby girl.

My cousin Emily with the fantastic painting that her young children made for the nursery. My favorite gift of the day!

Having fun with two of Baby Girl's biggest fans, Molly and Lauren.

The soon to be grandmothers

Baby Girl's first doll, given by Tori

A Triple Shower Day

On Wednesday, Wes and I were spoiled with showers all day long. When my students and I walked into lunch, I noticed that giant balloons were tied onto my seat at our lunch table. A big orange box filled with books took up my place at the table. My class had surprised me with a lunchtime book shower! My room mother was there with a table full of brownies and punch. Two of my sweet coworkers, Jane and Michelle, had planned this shower for me. They collected children's books from my students and they even made a really sweet Clemson themed box to hold the books. After lunch, I looked through all of the books with my students and had them to write their names in the books that they brought. My favorite books were a picture Bible and some Spanish language books.The balloons from my class shower.

After school, the faculty had a shower for me and two other ladies who are expecting. It was just perfect! This was also a book shower, and we had beautiful giant baskets filled with books on the table. The other teachers served delicious cake and other goodies. The other pregnant lady and I (one lady had already had her baby) had a great time looking through all of our books! My teammates are so great to me. They worked so hard to give us the most fantastic shower!
Jeanne and me at our shower (she is due exactly a week before me).

My wonderful teammates

After church that evening, Wes's choir friends gave us a Pampers shower. They had a sweetly decorated table with a cute cake and yummy cheese straws. We had a great time chatting with everyone, and it was exciting to have so many church friends together at once. It was nice for Wes to finally get to open up some gifts. We ended up with over 1,000 diapers! Everyone did a great job with their purchases, because we received diapers of all sizes. We also got a few other treats, and we received lots of wipes as well. We were so grateful that everyone did so much for us. We are so blessed to have such an amazing church family.The sweet centerpiece on the cake table.

Wes and me with one of my favorite books.

Just some of the many diapers we received.

After this day, we won't have to buy any books or diapers for a long time!

My Pregnancy Must-Haves

1. Wes- He has taken amazing care of me. Of course, he has gone out all times of the day or night to get food for me from some random place. He has cheered me on all of the times when I absolutely could not eat. He makes suggestion after suggestion of what I could possibly eat, even when I shoot down twenty ideas in a row. He has taken care of the house completely by himself without complaining. He listens to me complain and complain about how crummy I feel. He takes me on the perfect date when I really need it, and he lets me lie around lazily when I really need that. He even lets me watch my TV shows when we are watching TV together.

2. My mom- She also has listened to me complain about my daily ailments without ever mentioning that she (1) had me without an epidural and (2) carried twins full term throughout the entire summer. She has answered all of my many questions about anything pregnancy or baby related. We've been shopping to the same baby stores many times. She's bought more things for the baby and me than I can even count. She got us a fantastic chair for the nursery, our crib bedding, maternity clothes for me, and lots of baby clothes. She even sent flowers to baby girl and me.

3. Warm baths- No kidding, I take one of these almost each day. On a bad day, it's the one thing that will get me through to nighttime. I'm sure that our water and gas bill has skyrocketed because of this. I often fall asleep in the tub (I promise I won't drown my unborn child), which is nice, since I sometimes have a difficult time falling to sleep at night.

4. How I Met Your Mother- I've not been into watching TV much lately, but I'd like to because I think it would take my mind off of things. Most long drama shows are too much for me right now, but this show can hold my attention for thirty minutes. I'm so glad that I was finally convinced to watch this show. It has to be the funniest sitcom I've ever watched. I know that I will be watching old episodes on DVD this summer when I'm hiding from the heat inside.

5. Carbonated drinks- I know, I know. I should be only drinking water. When I'm feeling queasy, though, water only makes it worse. All I want is a fizzy drink. I don't know if it's because I always got a Pepsi when I was sick as a child, or if it really makes me feel better, but I literally crave a Coke when I'm nauseous. I think it really helps, though, because on Private Practice Dr. Charlotte King told Violet that fizzy drinks help to ease nausea.

6. Frosted Cherry Pop Tarts- I haven't eaten Pop Tarts in about ten years. For some reason, I started craving these (not toasted, which I used to insist upon), and I still haven't gotten sick of them. They work really well when I need a snack in the middle of the day or the middle of the night.

7. Wes's clothes- When I get home, all I want to do is put on a T-shirt and shorts. If I put on one of my T-shirts, though, I feel like a redneck as it is pulled tightly over my belly. Wes's shirts fit so well, and his shorts are nice and comfy. I'll probably even be spotted in the Rainforest Cafe T-shirt someday soon.

Beach Trip

We got to take a "last vacation" this past weekend. Wes was in a wedding at the beach, so we decided to make a weekend of it. We left Greenville at 1:00, so we had to hurry to get to the rehearsal at 5:00. Wes pulled through, as always, and he flew us there in the Jetta. The rehearsal was really quick, and we headed to the dinner. We were lucky to sit with Wes's sweet aunt and cousin. We enjoyed catching up with them.
After the rehearsal dinner, we drove all the way from Pawleys to Myrtle Beach to play putt putt at our favorite place, Mount Atlanticus. We play putt putt there each time we go to the beach. One of my favorite things about this place is the shave ice stand that you encounter halfway through the eighteen holes. I had purposely not gone for a shave ice that week because I was so looking forward to having one at Mount Atlanticus. Imagine how disappointed this pregnant girl was when she came upon a totally empty shave ice stand. Grrr! We still had the best time playing putt putt, especially in May weather as opposed to the stifling July heat that we usually play in.
The best part of the night was sleeping in a comfy King sized bed with no alarm set for the next day. The alarm part didn't do much for me, though, because I still woke up at 8:00. After a nutritious Froot Loop breakfast, Wes took me to some little shops I wanted to go to. We ate lunch at the Fish House, where I had my first taste of shrimp since I've been pregnant.
After eating, we walked through downtown Georgetown. I've never been there before, and I thought it was really neat. We liked looking in some of the shops and walking by the water.
After the wedding, we went back to downtown Georgetown with family. We came back to the hotel fairly early, and I was lucky to get into the comfy bed for a good night's sleep.
I'm not big on taking pregnant pictures, but I know that I would be sorry one day if I had never taken any. So here I am, seven months pregnant.

A Little Trip

I have been a little down in the dumps lately due mostly to anxiety, fatigue, and discomfort. I always look forward to my weekends with the anticipation of a child on Christmas morning. For the past several weekends, though, I've been so tired that I couldn't do anything exciting or productive. On Sunday nights, I've been feeling like I wasted the entire weekend. Finally, I felt like this past weekend was finally a good one.
On Friday night, we went to our first Greenville Drive game of the season. The weather was perfect, and the Drive played a great game. After the game, we went to Krispy Kreme for a treat.
I got to sleep in on Saturday (until 7:45), and then I got up for a miniature trip. Wes and I were going to Charlotte to run some errands. We went to a new mall for the sole purpose of going to Gap Maternity. I was on a desperate search for a dress for a wedding that we have to go to next week. I am not a big shopper and I hate trying on clothes, but I pulled every dress that I could find into the dressing room. Poor Wes had to watch me try on at least fifteen dresses. He was so helpful to tell me which dresses were decent and which made me look like I was wearing a muumuu. I got lucky and actually bought two dresses, when I was just hoping for one. One of them only cost $17!
After shopping, we ate lunch at the perfect restaurant. We decided to have Italian for lunch since I can usually eat that. We sat outside under an umbrella, and the weather was fantastic! It was sunny and gorgeous, but it wasn't too warm.
Once our bellies were full, we headed to Ikea. We walked through pretty quickly since we knew what we needed. We had already picked out a dresser for the nursery. We picked up the boxes and checked out. I wasn't much help, but Wes was able to pick it up and put it easily into the car. (Thanks, Mom, for letting us borrow your car).
We brought our tired selves back home and rested up so that we could spend three hours the next day putting the dresser together.

Baby Girl's First Flowers

Two days after finding out that we were having a girl, I was sitting in the cafeteria at school. The secretary walked into the cafeteria with beautiful pink tulips. I looked around at all of the other teachers in the cafeteria, wondering who was getting flowers that day. The secretary walked past my chair and then suddenly turned, setting the flowers in front of me on the table. I could not imagine why I would be getting flowers. I even asked the secretary if she was sure that she had the correct teacher. I checked the card, and they really were for me.
My mom was so excited about her first grandchild that she sent flowers to me at school! I love tulips, and I love to get flowers at school. What a treat for me!

March Snow!

I'm shocked, but it snowed on March 1. How exciting! I really like when enormous snowflakes pile up and turn everything white. I was so surprised to wake up from my nap and see snow everywhere. It gives me hope when it snows like this that my child might actually get to play in the snow one day. Sometimes I think that we will never get snow here like we used to. We took Maverick out for his first snow, but I don't think that he's a big fan of it. It was funny to watch how quickly his black fur would turn white again after he shook all of the snow off.

What fat snowflakes in front of our house!

Poor Maverick doesn't like to be cold in the snow.

We really got to see some snow!

Maverick hopes that showing his scary eyes will make us take him back inside.

What to do for Valentine's Day?

I really like Valentine's Day, but not so much in the romantic, lovey way. Wes and I have always liked to do something a little different and special for Valentine's Day. In the past, we've gone to Clemson basketball games a few times. This year, though, there wasn't a game on Valentine's Day. Since it had been awhile since we'd had a nice dinner, and I'd been feeling pretty well, we decided to eat at one of our favorite places. Cheesecake Factory is one of our favorite restaurants, and we hadn't eaten there since June. We drove up to Charlotte and ate at Cheesecake Factory at South Park. It was yummy! I even tried something new, which I hardly ever do. I also got my favorite - Tiramisu - for dessert. It was a treat to let myself have dessert, because I had banned dessert before I got pregnant. I would always ban dessert when we ate at Cheesecake Factory, and I hated doing that! We walked around the mall after lunch, and Wes was a sport to traipse through several stores with me. We had plans to go to Ikea after lunch, but it wasn't opening until four days later. Oh, well.
We then went to one of our favorite places, Dave and Busters. We were so excited that we didn't have to wait to get a lane for bowling. I love bowling here, because it's so clean and very modern looking. We had so much fun bowling, except that I realized being pregnant makes me stink at bowling. I've never been a good bowler, but I haven't thrown a gutter ball since I was in middle school. I actually lost count of all of the gutter balls that I threw that day. It was embarrassing! I need to get more practice.
I love going on little adventures with Wes, and we really needed this day to get out and be normal. The sweetest thing about the day was that Wes got tulips and a balloon for me, and had them for me in the morning. Tulips are my very favorite, and like a kid, I love balloons. What a great day!

I Love Phenergen

Apparently, I have no blog anymore. I hate that I've totally given up on blogging. I always knew that I would experience nausea when I was pregnant, but I had no clue that the nausea would last ALL DAY LONG! Christmas was really hard this year, and I had the most difficult time just getting out and driving a few miles to Greenridge to buy one present. Wes helped me out a lot. Without him, I never would have been ready for Christmas. Phenergen and Zofran helped out as well. I finally broke down and called the doctor on Christmas Eve to beg for some medicine. They aren't the magic pills that I'd hoped they were, but they do take the edge off.
The strangest thing about being pregnant is my appetite issues. I usually really like to eat. Since I've been pregnant, though, the thought of any food makes me sick. Forget trying to eat healthy. I can't even make myself choke down fries, pizza, or milkshakes. Poor Wes...each day he has no clue what I might be able to eat for dinner. We no longer plan meals. It's very childish, but it depresses me that food is such an issue. I hate eating, but I get even sicker if I don't eat. Food does not taste good to me anymore. Wes and I always looked forward to going to a nice dinner on payday Friday. We don't go out to eat anymore. We've actually had nights when Wes had to cheer me on: "Just one nugget, Casey. You can do it." After I choked it down, "Yay, I'm so proud of you!" Seriously? Is my husband really having to be my food cheerleader? I thought that I would eat everything in sight while I was pregnant.
There must be some positive in this, and here is what I've come up with. I am such a worrier. I worried from the day I found out I was pregnant. I worried that I would miscarry. Once I was past that point, I worried that I wasn't eating well. My latest worry is that I'm not big enough to be almost twenty weeks. Anyway, being so sick always served as a reminder that I was pregnant. Wes would laugh at me when I would tell him that I was afraid I wasn't pregnant anymore because I would pause in the middle of my worry to get sick. Feeling this way always let me know that there was still a baby in there, healthy and growing.